This question was asked of us today when sitting with another couple who is expecting quadruplets. She is just past 24 weeks and in the hospital. This visit brought back a flood of thoughts and emotions I have not thought about since the kids were born! Both Randy and I were reminded of our time at the hospital. It was a difficult time for both of us that has only brought us closer together. It is funny how we both remember different things more clearly than other things. There are many days I really can not tell you anything that happened because I have blocked them from my memory.(That is my guess anyway) These days are the days I was in so much pain and was in tears wanting the babies to be born so that my body would be my own again and that the mind numbing pain would cease. I very vividly remember rolling over one day and my belly stayed behind! I remember crying because I did not want Randy to leave me and go to work. I remember always wondering what did we get ourselves into, can we really handle this, are they going to make it and if they did are they going to be healthy and thrive. When you are living you life in the constraints of a hospital room you tend to analyze things over and over again. Really to tell you the truth I was an emotional wreck and so badly wanted to be in my own bed, eating "non hospital" food and be reassured that no matter what everything would work out! Even now the memories and emotions from that time in my life bring tears to my eyes. I really do not know how I got through it. Every night I prayed that I would just make it one more day and that the babies would be healthy! Then the next night I would pray the same prayer! By the will of God and with the help of family, friends, and our doctors and nurses I was able to keep them in until 28 weeks and 6 days.
Looking back at this time and where we are now I can truly say it is all worth it! We have four beautiful children, which I call our four little miracles! We have 4x the messes, 4x the hugs, 4x the kisses, 4x the silly ness, 4x the laughter, 4x the "mommy" and "daddy", 4x everything you can think of when it comes to children. I would not trade any of it for anything in the world!
Do I have regrets? No, I can honestly say I have none. We did everything in our power and so did our doctors, the rest we left in God's mighty hands. Now we are going to have 4 two year olds in just 2 months and I am so thankful for every minute I am their mother and will never take that for granted!!!!